mycharliealways

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And love you all!

LOVE,

Zrinka

Damn this stupid-annoying-forever-will-hate-you-if-you-erase-all-my- pictures-and-documents computer.
stupid stupid stupid!!
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Mom found something that can help me or get rid of the pain forever.Its bio-energy.
some people do that kind of stuff.it takes 4 treatments and they can do it over the distance.there is a person in Boston, and there is a guy in Slovenia.so we might have to go to Europe and Boston. i would love to go to Europe if we go we will meet up with my granny and granddad! so he has to have a recent picture of me (like my profile picture or something like that). he looks at the picture and makes the energy inside my body to start flowing.right now the energy is all in one space.so of course it hurts.so hes looking at my picture and at the same time i have to be laying down .without any electronic just peace. so hes looking at my picture and helping the energy move.but hes all the way across the word.each treatment(remember there are 4)is only like 15 to 25  minutes.and after that apparently my pain goes away and my back gets better and i will be back to normal. i cant remember what it was like to not be in pain and just be normal. to have no pain at all no brace no pills no doctors no nothing.even the feel of cloths on my skin . felling some body touch my waist or hug me dosen`t  feel right.im scared of it . its like i feel like they are going to squish me more and make more pain.its weird to feel the covers or the couch or leaning on a chair.have somebody touch me and i flinch away.i cant explain it right.i just wish i could be normal. to go to school and hang out with friends.you don't know that you would miss the school when you aren't there for a month or two.to not have too get a new brace made because you lost another 5 or 10 pounds.to change the brace because i grew and its short and small.to have pain every minute of your life. pills help but i guess i got used to the pain so its still hurting but i got used to it even after i take the pills.to have to have 7 pillows to fall asleep and to only be able to sleep on your sides.then the top part of the brace poke your shoulder.to wake up night after night . and to go to sleep at 4a.m in the morning or later then i wake up when everybody is asleep and then we repeat the cycle.so you dont see your family as much as u wish.i just hope it gets better.but my mom will do everything for me to get me better.i cant sit or stand and i cant even do home work in bed.in bed!!there are bad days and very bad days but NEVER a day without pain.


Love,


Zrinka

Well my sleep schedule is out of order AGAIN.
so i went to bed at 9A.M and woke up at like 9:30 P.M.
its really getting on my nerves .
but what can you do when you cant get in a right position or your back or something else wont stop hurting??

now everyone im my family is asleep(mom and dad)except charlie who is keeping me company

hes starting to get .


idk why but he loves to sleep under the computer table with all his stuffed pillows that i put there . hes treated like a king. do u know how many pillows he has?oh,and a blanket.(,or two)he has about lets say 1 very big pillow and like 3 small ones. we are a pillow family.
  
if you think that is a lot of pillows to sleep with you are wrong.XD i personally sleep with 7 pillows.
im going to try and list more devotions but im not the decider that decides that my back is.
so we will see



Love,

Zrinka

Hi,

well i have scoliosis and kyphosis.
we figured that out a year ago in December i think.
so my back a year ago was bent (kyphosis) at 61 degrees,
and it was curved at (scoliosis) at 9 degrees.
I got the brace on January,11 2009.
no one could figure out what was wrong with me for 6 months.
it was horrible . i was in so much pain.i mean my SPINE was bending so you can imagine what that feels like.well actually you cant if you never had it.
during those 6 months i lost 50 pounds.( i was 200 now im 145)
i didnt do any thing AT ALL. mainly i NEVER went out of the hous unless it was for a doctor or something like that . and i spent all my time in pain and in bed.so after we got the first brace i lost some more pounds(when we got it i was 169,i lost 20 lbs)and it was too big and it was like i never even got the brace.so we had to get another one. so this brace that i have on now i had for over 8 months.But(there is always a but for me)now it got too big because i lost some more weight. so we have to go to the doctor for him to see how im progressing and to order a new brace to be molded and made.i still take a lot of pills but what can you do ?

i dont go to sleep like normal teenagers (im going to be 15 april 9th)i go to bed between 2a.m and 8a.m. yeah i know its bad.and i wake up at like 6 or 8 p.m. . so im awake now and i felt like writing. im going to go read now and watch tv.

Love,


Zrinka